I realized that my desire for you to write me a love letter is unfounded. I realized that this desire is an act of selfishness, imposing on you what I want you to feel for me. I realized that by asking for one, I would lose the essence of the letter itself. So I too will not write you a love letter.
I realized that I may want to someday write you a love letter. And the sweetest letter I can think of right now will be the wedding vows we may be required to write someday. Therefore, I will not write you a love letter now.
I will control myself from expressing my emotions on paper for mainly two things. The first is that I want my first love letter to you to be special, to be the truth, to express my deepest desire to love you truly and not just mere flattery. I want you to know that every word that I write is right from my heart and that I mean them sincerely. I mean them and I will promise them to God and the witnesses at our wedding. I will write you that love letter to let the world know, just as we are baptized publicly to declare Jesus in our lives, that I love you.
I will control myself from expressing my emotions on paper for one other important thing: I do not know if I will someday walk toward you to the altar. I know this is alarming, and I know I should not even think this, but I think this is appropriate. Just as you try to avoid the topic of yourself writing a love letter, I believe that I should think the same. Maybe you are reserving that love letter for our wedding. Maybe you just don’t want to write. But I am reserving my love letter in the unfortunate event that I may be writing it for the wrong person. I’m sorry. At this point, I guess there are no certainties. There are no final decisions, and nothing is set in stone. Anything can change even if we don’t want it to change. So I won’t write you that love letter.
Someday, I hope you will get to read what I planned to write. Someday, I hope it will be you that I write the love letter to. Someday, I hope that I will get to see your face as I read to you and to the world the words that I have reserved for you, the words that promise me to you forever, because I love you.
Someday, I will write you a love letter.